I've realized I haven't written for quite some time. I've even thought about just closing down my blog considering how little I've been using it. I haven't been as productive lately as I had hoped to be. Tomorrow I am making a huge work day, and to plan out what I need to accomplish this week as we near the beginning of July. I suppose one of the reasons I haven't felt the need to write is nothing extremely exciting has happened in my life. I'm still unemployed, trying constantly to get a job. However, I am now certified to teach in Texas to say the least. I am certified to teach in three states, but I still don't have a job. I've been pushing as hard as I can to grab people's attention lately, and I find myself consistently disappointed and let down by those that I'm having to work with.
I've been cleaning a lot I suppose. De-cluttering my life. I finished my pile of shredding today and I oddly feel a lot lighter and cleaner inside my mind. My room shows it too. It's been a lot of receipts, school stuff, journal entries, etc. I keep having to remind myself that when I move, do I really want to take all of that clutter with me?
I am still happily in a relationship. Three weeks it'll be three months. Three months is important to me because if most of my relationships have never made it that far. I had myself fairly convinced that I was jinxed. Long distance has been hard. But her current living situation makes it harder, not allowing us to see each other unless I get an interview or officially move down there. It's frustrating. But it's not her fault, by no means. Her parents are just terrible.
I have a lot of butt kicking I need to do on myself this week. I need to get back to practicing Holly's wedding music (which I'm excited for!) since that will be in three weeks. The time that I've practiced it so far, it sounds pretty alright. Timing is just going to be an issue, of whether I need to slow it down or have it on repeat. We'll see, I suppose.
I feel like I want to be productive still tonight, but I feel like I wouldn't do my best at what I need to accomplish. So with that said, I feel it is time to call it a night so I can be wide eyed and awake to really accomplish something.
Good night, friends.
Peace out.
